Learning as I go.

Somehow I always manage to get on this thought process of questions and concerns that keeps me in an annoying loop. I can't fathom the confusion I feel right now. Maybe it's because I feel like I should be doing more with my life, and there is this disheartening gap. I know for a fact that I have been on this road, smooth sailing for too long and the scenery is getting old. Somehow I need to find not a detour, but a whole new road to converse on. I don't want to miss the opportunities in life, because I'm afraid of taking a chance! How do we change roads with peace in our hearts that it's okay to let go and move on?

I can't grasp how many times this year people just gave up on fighting battles that were really worth fighting for. Don't we all "deserve" to wake up each morning happy for the day to come? I know in my heart everyone, and yes I say everyone deserves the chance at happiness! However, sometimes we hinder this from someone.... I dislike this very much!

If we aren't honest and truthful with one another we well never get there! Yet, I see, hear, and feel how often we lie, cheat and use others to get what we want. Just take a moment out of each day and do something small for someone else, and let me tell you it feels so much better than using someone.I can say many lonely days have loomed in my past, yet everyday I try my hardest to make the most of what I have and find to give some of that to someone else. I keep trying to understand, please forgive me if I'm sounding judgmental, how we can be so greedy and spiteful.

However, from my previous thoughts, I'm slowly learning that everyone grows up learning different values and beliefs, about what's right and wrong. Truthful it must be stated, there will never be a clear and justifiable list of such. It's just like the simple fact we all will never agree on anything, accept for the mere fact that we can agree that we will never agree. With all this mind, I'm learning that even though I see everyone should learn to give somehow, and not be so greedy, that some people were never taught to think or act in such a way. If I were to ask that everyone do so, I would be just as wrong, if not more so. I can say that I'm wiling to spend the rest of my life trying to show people such kind acts and teaching them other ways of life.

I can't change the world, but I can be the change I wish to see in the world.